THIS WRITTERS HEART

  There’s a young woman called Grace, who lives on her family country farm in Devon. She is single and in her mid thirties. A woman on a farm, unafraid to roll up her sleeves and muck in. Any combination of physical labour, animal care, machinery operation, and business management. Daily tasks depend on the farm type, but modern female farmers and farmhands handle everything from driving heavy tractors to managing finances and veterinary care. Grace dedicate herself to the agricultural labours of her native region. She can be found from dawn until dusk working diligently alongside her father. With her father, a man of considerable years and wisdom, are joined by Keith and Will, the hired farmhands. Meanwhile, her mother manages the domestic sphere, fulfilling her roles as a devoted wife and mother. Regardless of the season or prevailing conditions, there is a constant abundance of tasks. Mutual assistance is readily available from neighbouring farms when required, Grace, Keith, Wi...

Getting a cancer diagnosis is extremely stressful, and that brings a whole load of emotions, and lack of sleep certainly does not help. I think many of us have periods of insomnia and will spend the rest of the night getting frustrated because we can’t sleep. That for some like myself is where journaling any thoughts or present challenges helps. Journaling is a powerful habit that helps clear your mind, process complex emotions, reduce stress, and track personal growth. Putting thoughts on paper turns boosts problem-solving skills, and creates a permanent record of your life's journey. Withdrawing it from within ourselves so it doesn’t stay festering within us, or have they risk of having our thoughts and emotions dangerously or selfishly expressed on to other unexpected individuals. A Macmillan journal is supposed to help you to feel empowered and take control of your treatment journey so that you can focus on what's important . . . you! Going through any treatment can be diff...

She is going somewhere, but where did she say? She's off to some place, going out for the day. But where—where has she gone? She did tell me. If I did not know, she wouldn't have said where. Was it somewhere near or far away? And now she's gone to that place—the exact place she mentioned to me. While I sit here reminiscing, trying to jog my memory. She's gone off somewhere. I hope she has a lovely day, wherever that might be. I might go there someday—who knows when that will be? I'll travel to that place she visited today, if it appeals to me. A place with joy and pleasure, somewhere just to get away. I'll know if she enjoyed it by the returning smile on her face. I'll know if she didn't enjoy it by the frown on her face. Wherever she's gone, I'm still right here. The exact spot where we said hello, nice day. She's gone off somewhere, and I've not moved from here. I've spent wasted time pondering, staring into space, about where she s...

Journaling and poetry helps helps us process feelings, reduce stress, and gain clear perspective on everyday problems. These two aspects are my strengths and creative outlets. People have been asking me through this season am I still able to write and write poetry. The answer is definitely yes, just because I'm going through cancer treatment hasn't stopped me, infact its kept me going. I might have taken a different route but once a poet always a poet. I write almost daily about and through this journey both indirectly or directly.   But through this experience and experience of posting on line. I have been the victim of people stealing my words and claiming them as their own. I have experienced the critics cruel side of pulling my words apart. But such things I have learned to overcome, now being cautious where, when and I share my creative inner thoughts.  Through this season I write about the good days and the bad days. I started at the beginning writing a cancer jo...

People call out Shropshire & Telford NSH and give it a bad name. Yes Shrewsbury has its faults like many NHS hospitals and services. Its a countrywide issue let down by previous governments.  Yes it only a stetched system that is broken. Broken by the previous government which the current government is trying too mend. Please give them a chance. Over the last 10 months the care and professionalism of its staff during my treatment has been phenomenal. At all the three main hospitals across Shropshire. Even if they do like sending lots and lots paper in envelopes. I am seeing first hand the sheer exhaustion on their faces, but when they are one to one with patient they give 100% dedication with a smile on their faces.  Yes they might make errors, but we have appreciate the pressure our NHS is under. I'm not making excuses for the nursing staff and consultants. I have seen the pain family and friends have gone through when mistakes have been made. But we're all human and we a...

So, how do you explain to everyone what's been going on. How do you explain something that is so personal but can help face the circumstances. The only way I thought was jumping back on the blog and try and explain. Blogging is now not one of my creative priorities. I'm trying to give it up. Do I need to explain every detail, every pain. Feel free to skip this if you don't want to hear. You may need tissues for this one  So, I have just done chemotherapy round two, 6 days ago. And i kid you not it has been a tough and extremely painful week. But i was warned session two and three are the worst weeks of your treatment and boy they weren't wrong. There were times this week where I had reached my limit. It got me asking alsorts of questions and numerous doubts. I'm not going to pretend that cancer and chemotherapy has definitely felt like has smacked me in the face this week. Since first leaning of my diagnosis I've never been in denial, daily listening to other st...